Siblings

I have three younger siblings, all girls. I swear that the world must hate me some days when I have to deal with the tears and the drama of so many girls. Especially the two youngest who are both teenagers in high school. I may complain but I do miss my sisters. One is in college, one lives in North Carolina, and the other lives with me and my wife. Alyssa is 15 and though we are alike we are also insanely different. She is the girly girl with emotions that run wild and her biggest downfall is her heart. She lives by her emotions and her "go to" thing when she is upset, mad, hurt, scared or anything is tears. She is very much like my wife in that aspect and I have no idea what to do when she breaks down other than walk away or turn up my video games. I am different in the fact that I am very logical and let my mind rule my decisions versus my emotions. However, Alyssa and I are very alike in the fact that we reflect our emotions off of each other. When I am upset with her for being, well the only way to explain it is a teenager, I tell her. We had very different childhoods so I may be stricter on her than she wants. She cries and yells, well then I yell. It turns into a screaming match sometimes with my wife left to referee the match to be sure no one kills the other. Through all of the ups and downs and figuring out how to handle the emotional rollercoaster known as a female teenager, I have found that I love her more like my child than my sister. She has shown me that I can be a better parent than I ever thought I would. She has shown me that my heart is big enough to give my unconditional, always supportive love to someone other than my wife. Although I love all my siblings and would move the world for them, I feel like they are able to handle the world on their own without as much assistance, but when I think of Alyssa all I see is a five year old who needs me to hold her hand and protect her from the monsters knocking on her door.

Supportive Grandparents

It’s hard to pick any one specific statement or belief that represents my outlook on life. There are so many things that define who I am like my family, my work, and my dreams. My family has always been supportive of me and has never shunned me or shut me out. The most important people in my life are my grandparents who took me in at 14 when my father died and mother went to prison. They are like my parents and have been a huge part of my life since I was born. I couldn’t even imagine where I would be without their love and support. I can’t help but be thankful for everything they have done for me. They have helped pave the path to my future by always encouraging me to move forward and never look back on the bad things, but instead learn from them. I have so much love and respect for them and I strive to make them proud in everything I do.

This I Believe Essays...

I think this I bleieve essays are very interesting. They require remembering one simple believe or theory and running wild with it. You could litterally go anywhere with one simple line and that's why I think it is an amazing writing prompt and it is probably the best way to break the ice especially in blogging, when it's not something you are used to. I can relate to really any this I believe essay essentially. It's really not a case of whether I can relate, but more do I agree? My favorite of the this I believe essays was "Be cool to the Pizza guy" by Sarah Adams. There was a little bit of humor involved, but I love her philosophy. It's not that she's saying to only be kind to the pizza delivery people out there, she's really sayin to learn to be courteous and to be patient even when others aren't the same to you. She's saying to slow down and enjoy life, take it day by day, minute by minute and to stop and smell the roses every once in a while. Whether you choose to be patient with just the pizza guy or to enact this philosophy with everyone it's important to remember that you need to be kind to others and to show some patience and grace every once in a while. Sure we all feel like it's hard not to flip off that guy that cuts you off while driving down the highway, but we must show a little restraint and not let our egos control everything about us. It's important to remember that to someone else we are the pizza dude. Our own acts cause someone else to made the same decision to flip you off or just be patient. Which one will win over?

Audience Analysis

I have learned a lot in the last week about my fellow composition I classmates by having everyone in the class ask questions to others and answer questions about ourselves. I learned that there are quite a few married people in my class, some with children and some without. My question asked about what kind of pets the others in my class have and if they wanted any others and I thought it was super interesting seeing how many people had no pets at all as I was raised around pets. I’ve always had at least a dog and now I have three. There were several more serious questions, such as biggest fear which I really felt let everyone in the class inside of our minds a little more. Most people won’t be honest in a class setting and will just give a generic answer or whatever answer was common in the classroom, but it seems as though everyone in the class was comfortable being totally honest. It’s only hard to be open in public because everyone is always afraid that someone else is judging them and waiting for their response to be a “bad” one. This one question really made everyone open up and I love that. I was really excited that someone thought to ask about our favorite quotes. I’m really not a reader, I’m not at all interested in reading and it’s super hard for me to really get into anything I read whether it’s for pleasure or for assignment, but I do have a favorite quote and I think being able to see everyone’s favorite quote tells you a lot about a person. A person’s favorite quote tells you whether they are more interested in religion, politics, happiness, sadness, whether they are going through a hard time or whether they are doing amazing and their life is right on track. It may seem strange, but I think the favorite quotes question will be the most helpful for me when choosing how to say things to my audience.

Love Has No Gender

I believe love has no gender. I believe our hearts dictate whom we love and that our entire lives we search for "the one" but we are destiny for only one person. I believe that gender is mental and sex is physical. We choose our gender based on who we are and how we feel as a person and no one in the world has the right to deny us of our feelings. People protest the funerals of our military heroes and America says that's ok because it's freedom of speech yet slaps our LGBT community in the face for being honest and true to themselves and loving who they love. Our society is so twisted and discusting. It sickens me just how many people there are in the world who hate a personfor how they see themselves and whom they are destin to love. The LGBT community are they only really true people in the world. They are honest. They are unafraid to show their true selves even though the world hates them, beats them, and thinks they are somehow broken. We should be discusted with our selves for not being that honest and true. Teenage girls who are stick thin call themselves fat and that's "normal" teenage girl stuff, yet the boy who looks in the mirror and sees himself as a girl is wrong for wanting to be true. It's horrible how people are treated it's a direct reflection upon us as human beings to treat others with different beliefs and feelingss with such disrespect. I read the other day about a 16 year old girl in Texas who was kicked off her Softball team and outted to her parents because she was gay. That's horrible! What kind of cruel world are we living in. Teenage girls can have an abortion and that's an invasion of privacy to tell their parents about that yet being gay is a horrible sin and we should treat our LGBT like leppars. This is way beyond my understanding. The biggotry is horrible and I hope one day I can be proud to live in a country where people respect others views and opinions instead of shunning them.





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This I Believe...

I believe I am a good husband.
I blelieve am an efficient writer.
I believe things aren't always what they seem.
I believe sometimes things are exactly what they seem.
I believe that love should last forever.
I believe love has no gender.
I believe that your heart is only meant to be shared with one person.
I believe that one person should get your whole heart.
I believe that bad things happen to good people and bad people.
I believe I have a faithful wife.
I believe I try to do the right thing most of the time.
I believe I am respected by many.
I believe a few close friends are better than a ton of aqaintances.
I believe that hard times build us into stronger people both physically and emotionally.
I believe that everyone has the right to there own opinion.
I believe our government seeks too much control.
I believe the government has no right to know what weapons I own in my home.
I believe that I have a strange and unpersonable personality.
I believe I don't show enough emotion physically.
I believe I show too much emotion mentally, in my writing.
I believe I give too much of myself and expect too little in return.
I believe the sanctity of marriage is not defined my gender, but by love, true love.
I believe everyone has the right to marry whom they love and not be judged.
I believe religion is too important to America and humanity is suffering.
I believe that my family is the most important thing in the world.
I believe that loss is important in this world.
I believe tragic things are apart of nature and are a mandatory way of life.
I believe too many people blow things way out of proportion.
I believe a lot of people will disagree with me and I really don't care.
I believe nothing is more clear than the scientific facts.
I believe Psychology is NOT a science.
I believe that one day I will become a doctor.
I believe one day that my wife and I will build that house of our dreams.
I believe in true love.

Am I being Unreasonable?

This rage inside me is building and I don't know if it's even for a cause. Maybe I'm over reacting and everything is just missunderstood. Maybe I'm not and everything is way more messed up than I imagined. It feels like right now I'm thinking correctly and now I am reflecting on everything I've done wrong. I have no idea how to fix anything anymore. In my mind everything is crashing down around me and I no longer have anything to hold on to. I thought for once everything was good. That progress was made and maybe it has been made, but this hurts and I'm so angry and I hate having no other release. I wonder if I should even try to clarify this or just fade away and disconnect. Is it worth finding out the truth? Right now a lie is so much better.

Perfectly Unperfect

It's like a swarm of butterflies are fluttering around inside of me. All their tiny little wings just fluttering about tickling my insides making me feel no control over my own body. My mind is complete it feels whole and free there's nothing burdening my mind or holding me back from being happy. There are those who encourage us and those who discourage us. As you stumble through like you really have to be careful who you give yourself to you cannot give yourself to everyone so trying is never going to have a good outcome, but you shouldn't be so guarded that you never give yourself away.

Life is such an amazing journey and the best part of my journey is the person walking beside me. The person you choose to walk beside you must be someone who can stand their ground who can lean on you and allow you to lean on them. Then need toencourage you to keep going even when you're ready to quit. Only a few are lucky enough to find that person who is your sould mate who will walk down that path with you no matter whether you make a wrong turn, go down a dark narrow path, or are traveling sown that bright yellow brick road. Not all the paths are amazing, but the partner makes the walk worth it.

I'm one of the few lucky enough to have found that perfect partner. I don't mean literally perfect we are so perfectly unperfect together my weaknesses are her strengths and her weaknesses are my strengths.

Everything fits perfectly we are sould mates, penguins, but not for those cheesey cliche reasons, hell she's the reason I even believe in any of that cheesey crap anyhow. The things that make me love her more and more each day are the important ones. She encourages me all the time, she pushes me harder than I've ever been pushed, she puts up with me, she has helped me deal with my fears and she's helped me with my communication with others. No one can ever ben her, replace her. She's everything to me and more and more so everyday. She doesn't know it, but she's it and I'm hers. She completes me and holds me to a higher standing, not in a bad way, but a good way she keeps me level and complete.

I just wish she knew everyday just how much she means to me and that I didn't wake up today, or anyday since I've know her, wanting anything more or less than her. This is real love unconditional all the time forever.

 

Jung Typology

I took the Jung Typology Test for my Composition I class which I found interesting because I had taken the test a few weeks ago at work with my co-workers and we all really got a kick out of our results. As far as personality the Jung Test is spot on! Thinking about it in reference to my writing and how it may assist me in writing in college really gets me thinking.

My typology is Introverted Sensing Thinking Judging (ISTJ). This description is definitely me! I am very much an inspector, very punctual (early most of the time), I'm a very by the book, facts are facts person. The question is how will this affect me as a writer and the answer is a tough one to come by. I think that one's personality affects their writing just as much as it affects their spoken communication. In my opinion written communication is a more honest and open form of communication. In writing one can express their real feelings and emotions. The can be honest in the purest and simpliest form. Most are more likely to cuss someone out or be extremely prejudice and judgemental in their writing than face to face.

I think this test won't necessarily help me with my writing, but make me aware of brutally honest personality type so that I can be cautious when writing so as not to hurt anyone's feelings or discredit another person. I believe the test only affects my editing and observation of myself rather than any other aspect of my writing. If I need to write about something factual then this typology will more than likely make my writing stronger, because I won't be afraid to disagree or state the facts.